Had my one month follow up yesterday.... only lost .5 lbs. I am soo frustratedddddddd
The Dr doesn't seem to think that this is a problem and tells me to stay with the program.. Well of course I will, but jeeesh...
On to bigger and better I suppose.. Not going to worry so much about it, just going to eat right and continue with my healthy lifestyle!
I have $100 saved from the gift cards they give me when I go.. Want to buy something to help out with the healthy living.. just not sure what right now!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Fears
My worst fear appears to be coming true. I am a little over three weeks out and the scale has not moved since week one.
Monday, May 17, 2010
My new status!!
Well, I am no longer Morbidly obese. My BMI dropped below 40 to 39 this visit! Hey it's the small victories that count right!!
Other than that, I am still frustrated with the pace this time around, but I did expect it. I have only lost 7lbs since surgery. I need to get to the gym more often and push myself harder!
This weekend I did a 5k and reached my goal of getting in under an hour!!! 0:55:32 to be exact!! I am most happy!!!
Other than that, I am still frustrated with the pace this time around, but I did expect it. I have only lost 7lbs since surgery. I need to get to the gym more often and push myself harder!
This weekend I did a 5k and reached my goal of getting in under an hour!!! 0:55:32 to be exact!! I am most happy!!!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Dr's Dr's everwhere!
Yesterday was a day of Dr's....
I had my yearly physical with my PCP as well as post op with him. That took forever!! Got a couple vaccines, blood work, pap, ekg, and assorted other stuff to keep me healthy!
Next I was off to get my hair cut! You see, I live out in the boonies, but all my peeps are in Columbus. Therefore I schedule lot's of stuff in one day!!
After the haircut I was off to the GYN for a test on my cyst. The good news is that it hasn't grown much at all. He did some blood work to be sure, but most likely we will just continue to watch it. Works for me!
Once that was all done I headed out for my 2 hour drive home with a stop at the grocery when going through town.
Got home, and was very tired, so headed to bed around 8pm. Once I was all settled in and had the TV going, my freaking sugar DROPPED.. down to about 55 I would say. Not good at all.. Not sure what is up with that, I have been off all diabetic meds for almost a year now.
Today I got a dz long stem pink roses from D.............. nice!
I had my yearly physical with my PCP as well as post op with him. That took forever!! Got a couple vaccines, blood work, pap, ekg, and assorted other stuff to keep me healthy!
Next I was off to get my hair cut! You see, I live out in the boonies, but all my peeps are in Columbus. Therefore I schedule lot's of stuff in one day!!
After the haircut I was off to the GYN for a test on my cyst. The good news is that it hasn't grown much at all. He did some blood work to be sure, but most likely we will just continue to watch it. Works for me!
Once that was all done I headed out for my 2 hour drive home with a stop at the grocery when going through town.
Got home, and was very tired, so headed to bed around 8pm. Once I was all settled in and had the TV going, my freaking sugar DROPPED.. down to about 55 I would say. Not good at all.. Not sure what is up with that, I have been off all diabetic meds for almost a year now.
Today I got a dz long stem pink roses from D.............. nice!
Monday, May 10, 2010
Give me a break!
I have to be the ONLY person in the TOGA study that had the procedure and is GAINING weight.. wtf?
It has been really strange... During the two week liquid diet preceding the surgery I lost a whopping 2 lbs... srsly! The week of the surgery I lost 10 lbs.. and the two weeks following I gained 5 lbs back.
I am really frustrated with the whole thing right now. All I can honestly do is keep up with the program, but it is getting hard to stay focused when things are not going as planned.................
It has been really strange... During the two week liquid diet preceding the surgery I lost a whopping 2 lbs... srsly! The week of the surgery I lost 10 lbs.. and the two weeks following I gained 5 lbs back.
I am really frustrated with the whole thing right now. All I can honestly do is keep up with the program, but it is getting hard to stay focused when things are not going as planned.................
Friday, May 7, 2010
Gym
Went to the gym for the first time last night. It was different...lol
I started on the treadmill, and each time I took a sip of water, I could feel it jiggling around. It made me a bit sick to my stomach, but it worked itself out. I didn't push it to hard, 18 minute mile and 2 minute cool down. Then I worked on my arms and upper back for a couple.
It actually felt good to have something other than food to focus on!
Out for the weekend, which of course means, packing, measuring and securing food to bring along.
I once was asked what I missed most about food. I think I have found the answer.... I miss the ease of grabbing food on the go. It was so not healthy, but much easier!
I started on the treadmill, and each time I took a sip of water, I could feel it jiggling around. It made me a bit sick to my stomach, but it worked itself out. I didn't push it to hard, 18 minute mile and 2 minute cool down. Then I worked on my arms and upper back for a couple.
It actually felt good to have something other than food to focus on!
Out for the weekend, which of course means, packing, measuring and securing food to bring along.
I once was asked what I missed most about food. I think I have found the answer.... I miss the ease of grabbing food on the go. It was so not healthy, but much easier!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Weirdness
Well, it has been a week and boy has it been a weird ride.
I am still unable to swallow pills so I have been taking all kinds of children's liquid stuff.. Not the best, but it works just the same.
Still staying away from veggies and keeping things bland which seems to be helping! I have been on liquids for 4 weeks now and am so ready for some real food!! Not sure when that will be, but am ready none the less.
D picked up some protein powder for me to add to my liquids... yumm (not)
Other than the gas issue, I am doing great...! The scale is still not my friend, but I am ok with that right now!!!
I am still unable to swallow pills so I have been taking all kinds of children's liquid stuff.. Not the best, but it works just the same.
Still staying away from veggies and keeping things bland which seems to be helping! I have been on liquids for 4 weeks now and am so ready for some real food!! Not sure when that will be, but am ready none the less.
D picked up some protein powder for me to add to my liquids... yumm (not)
Other than the gas issue, I am doing great...! The scale is still not my friend, but I am ok with that right now!!!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Veggies bad...very very bad.....
Right now I am on liquids to puree type diet. Mostly the consistency of loose mashed potatoes...lol
On Sunday night I ran to the market to pick up a few things and thought that I would make myself some oh so yummy and healthy veggie soup. I roasted plum tomatoes, onions, garlic and baby zukes. I also steamed some spinach and carrots. All this went into the blender with home made chicken stock my mom made for me. It was really good!
I had it for lunch on Monday... it was not good. It caused so much excess gas on my stomach that I was literally doubled over in pain most of Monday night.
Needless to say, Tuesday is all about bland bland bland.. Protein shake for breakfast, cream of wheat for lunch and most likely mashed potatoes for dinner.................
We shall try again next week!
On Sunday night I ran to the market to pick up a few things and thought that I would make myself some oh so yummy and healthy veggie soup. I roasted plum tomatoes, onions, garlic and baby zukes. I also steamed some spinach and carrots. All this went into the blender with home made chicken stock my mom made for me. It was really good!
I had it for lunch on Monday... it was not good. It caused so much excess gas on my stomach that I was literally doubled over in pain most of Monday night.
Needless to say, Tuesday is all about bland bland bland.. Protein shake for breakfast, cream of wheat for lunch and most likely mashed potatoes for dinner.................
We shall try again next week!
Monday, May 3, 2010
I'm back amongst the living!
Last week on April 27, 2010 I went in and really did have the TOGA procedure.!
Boy was this different than last time. I stayed in Cleveland the night before because A) I had some yukky meds to take, and B) It is a 2 hour drive my house. Woke up at 4:30 am on Tuesday and headed to the Hospital with my mom and met up with D. I was scared a little, but mostly OK. I had been dealing with all this for over a year, and was prepared for what lay ahead.
They took me back around 6:15am for the prep stuff. UH Cleveland being a teaching hospital, you don't get to just talk to the Dr's, but their 77 minions as well. About 7:30 they doped me a little and started to drive me back to the room. I remember rolling in, and I think moving to another table, I also remember them putting all kinds of blankets under my back and that is all folks...Until..... OMG I woke up very sick to my stomach, sore throat, and burning GI Track.
Thank god for drugs... They let me sleep until about 1:30 when they took me to my room! I will say that I slept through most of Tuesday and Tuesday night. The only waking moments I had were filled with stomach upset and sore throat.At some point they switched me to Morphine.... not a good idea. Apparently I am allergic! However, the swollen, painful face did not deter them from giving me three more doses before my Dr finely came in a saved me on Wed Morning!
The best part is that honestly I was pretty ikky for less than 24 hours! If it wasn't for the pain in my face and the groggy feeling from all the drugs, I would have been fine!
Thank god for D, my mom and all the well wishes!
Today I am feeling back to my normal self and ready to face the world!
Last week on April 27, 2010 I went in and really did have the TOGA procedure.!
Boy was this different than last time. I stayed in Cleveland the night before because A) I had some yukky meds to take, and B) It is a 2 hour drive my house. Woke up at 4:30 am on Tuesday and headed to the Hospital with my mom and met up with D. I was scared a little, but mostly OK. I had been dealing with all this for over a year, and was prepared for what lay ahead.
They took me back around 6:15am for the prep stuff. UH Cleveland being a teaching hospital, you don't get to just talk to the Dr's, but their 77 minions as well. About 7:30 they doped me a little and started to drive me back to the room. I remember rolling in, and I think moving to another table, I also remember them putting all kinds of blankets under my back and that is all folks...Until..... OMG I woke up very sick to my stomach, sore throat, and burning GI Track.
Thank god for drugs... They let me sleep until about 1:30 when they took me to my room! I will say that I slept through most of Tuesday and Tuesday night. The only waking moments I had were filled with stomach upset and sore throat.At some point they switched me to Morphine.... not a good idea. Apparently I am allergic! However, the swollen, painful face did not deter them from giving me three more doses before my Dr finely came in a saved me on Wed Morning!
The best part is that honestly I was pretty ikky for less than 24 hours! If it wasn't for the pain in my face and the groggy feeling from all the drugs, I would have been fine!
Thank god for D, my mom and all the well wishes!
Today I am feeling back to my normal self and ready to face the world!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
6 Days
I have six more days of this liquid diet............
I think I figured out why I am having such a hard time this go around. I am not really losing any weight. Last time I dropped almost 17 lbs which helped me along. This time I think I have lost 3 lbs. I know it is because my body is used to the reduced calorie intake as well as my activity. But it is frustrating.
Other than that, I am also a bit scared. I tend to pass out in these situations and it isn't really fun. I will try to control it, and maybe because I have done this before it will be easier! Here's to hoping the blood letters get it in one stick!
I think I figured out why I am having such a hard time this go around. I am not really losing any weight. Last time I dropped almost 17 lbs which helped me along. This time I think I have lost 3 lbs. I know it is because my body is used to the reduced calorie intake as well as my activity. But it is frustrating.
Other than that, I am also a bit scared. I tend to pass out in these situations and it isn't really fun. I will try to control it, and maybe because I have done this before it will be easier! Here's to hoping the blood letters get it in one stick!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Monday
It's monday.... I am hungry and tired of drinking................
I have only lost about 1.5 lbs so far and am not real happy about that either.....
Grumpy today
I have only lost about 1.5 lbs so far and am not real happy about that either.....
Grumpy today
Friday, April 16, 2010
12 days
I have 12 days to go! I am now in the liquids portion and am not really enjoying it so much, but know that when the scale starts to move a bit it will pick me up!
Being a bzz agent has actually paid off this time around! I am doing Starbucks this time around and am drinking the Pikes Place roast. I will tell you that when I am feeling hungry or low on energy I brew some up! It is surprisingly satisfying and really keeps me moving!! You should try it!
Being a bzz agent has actually paid off this time around! I am doing Starbucks this time around and am drinking the Pikes Place roast. I will tell you that when I am feeling hungry or low on energy I brew some up! It is surprisingly satisfying and really keeps me moving!! You should try it!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
14 and counting
Went to UH Cleveland today for my pre admission testing. I hate it, but it is important. I also started my liquid diet, which again.. I hate. Two weeks of nothing but, Fat Free cream Soup strained, Jello, Yogurt, Apple Sauce, Popsicles, Broth, and Protein Shakes... YUMMO
But the benefits are good, and it will get me ready for my reduced intake post op................
uggggggggggggg
But the benefits are good, and it will get me ready for my reduced intake post op................
uggggggggggggg
Friday, April 9, 2010
Friday
Lot's going on in my head right now. I have been feeling very stressed out with this whole situation. The past year has been a tough one with not really knowing if I had it or not. Wanting so badly to believe that I did, holding onto that hope. Then as time came closer to actually finding out, I was scared that I did have it. I was afraid that I had not lost enough and wouldn't be able to lose any more.
Well, I got the best case scenario and should be happy....... And it really isn't that I am not happy, because I am. I am more scared I suppose than anything. I am scared that I won't lose anymore and that the past year, and the upcoming year will not yield the results I am hoping for.
I guess time will tell!
Well, I got the best case scenario and should be happy....... And it really isn't that I am not happy, because I am. I am more scared I suppose than anything. I am scared that I won't lose anymore and that the past year, and the upcoming year will not yield the results I am hoping for.
I guess time will tell!
Monday, April 5, 2010
22 Days
And counting.....
I start my liquid diet next week. Not really looking forward to it, but know that it is best for me. And will help me lose a couple of pounds prior to the surgery.
I continue to struggle with my fears that this isn't going to work and that I will still need to do the RYN at some point. But, I am pushing forward. I am healthier, happier and ready for more!
I showed my niece my 101 goals in 1001 days book! She has started her own!! Gotta love that!
I start my liquid diet next week. Not really looking forward to it, but know that it is best for me. And will help me lose a couple of pounds prior to the surgery.
I continue to struggle with my fears that this isn't going to work and that I will still need to do the RYN at some point. But, I am pushing forward. I am healthier, happier and ready for more!
I showed my niece my 101 goals in 1001 days book! She has started her own!! Gotta love that!
Monday, March 29, 2010
Goals
I started a project the beginning of this year. 101 goals in 1001 days! It's great! One of my goals is to attempt to have a picture published. Well, not just a picture, but one of MY photographs. I have a couple in mind, but really need to get out and start shooting some more.
I am hoping to head out in my kayak and get some shots that are different and will stand out.
I am hoping to head out in my kayak and get some shots that are different and will stand out.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Weekend
Spent the weekend with a friend. It's nice to have a date, and to know that I will have the chance to lose more weight. Right now, however, I don't want to gain any weight before the surgery. I am struggling with not over eating because I know I can. It will also make it harder for me to do the liquid diet that I have to start on April 13, 2010. Two weeks before and two weeks after.
I should at least lose something during this time....!
I should at least lose something during this time....!
Friday, March 26, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Date
I got my date today! April 27, 2010! woo hoo. It's weird because my original date last year was April 28, 2009. But I got moved up do to a cancellation, so Now it looks like it will be April again!
I am sooo excited, a bit nervous and all around happy!
I think I am most scared that over the past year I have lost all my weight and won't be able to lose more. Which part of me knows is not true.. I mean honestly I have about 100 more lbs I could lose. And I am scared to fail, or fall off the wagon and gain it back, or worse, pop my staples. That would suck... totally
So TOGA round two..
Starting weight.. 252 lbs
And away we go!
I am sooo excited, a bit nervous and all around happy!
I think I am most scared that over the past year I have lost all my weight and won't be able to lose more. Which part of me knows is not true.. I mean honestly I have about 100 more lbs I could lose. And I am scared to fail, or fall off the wagon and gain it back, or worse, pop my staples. That would suck... totally
So TOGA round two..
Starting weight.. 252 lbs
And away we go!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Calm....calm....calm....
I am so excited today. Up to this point, I had resigned myself to being this weight forever. The scale has not been moving, and I have been really frustrated. Now I have a second chance!
From what I have been reading, the staples are only projected to last 2 to 3 years. So I need to drop the weight and work on maintaining as quickly as possible, while still getting my nutrition. I am not looking forward to the hair and nail loss again, but they will come back. (not total loss, just thin and ikky for the hair, and the nails get really brittle)
Next step, getting my date and starting the liquid diet again. I will be on liquids for two weeks prior and 2 weeks after. Heck this should jump start the loss again for sure! Then I go in for surgery and home a day later!!
Can't wait!
From what I have been reading, the staples are only projected to last 2 to 3 years. So I need to drop the weight and work on maintaining as quickly as possible, while still getting my nutrition. I am not looking forward to the hair and nail loss again, but they will come back. (not total loss, just thin and ikky for the hair, and the nails get really brittle)
Next step, getting my date and starting the liquid diet again. I will be on liquids for two weeks prior and 2 weeks after. Heck this should jump start the loss again for sure! Then I go in for surgery and home a day later!!
Can't wait!
Monday, March 22, 2010
One year post op-----NOT
Wow, just got back from the Dr's and found out that I did not have the TOGa! I will be getting it here in a few weeks! I am so happy for many reasons....
Mainly I am happy that I have learned to lose and maintain. Honestly the past nine months have been about just that. Holding onto the initial loss. Soooo, hopefully I will lose some more in the near future!!
Mainly I am happy that I have learned to lose and maintain. Honestly the past nine months have been about just that. Holding onto the initial loss. Soooo, hopefully I will lose some more in the near future!!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Sleepless in Ohio
Go in to see Dr Khaiton in the morning to open my envelope. I am really stressing out tonight.
When I signed up for this a year ago, I didn't realize how emotional this was going to be.
To be cont...........
When I signed up for this a year ago, I didn't realize how emotional this was going to be.
To be cont...........
Friday, March 19, 2010
Couch to 5k
Is tuff, I am not sure I have lost enough to really do this. My hips hurt, and my legs are sore, which is OK, but I am not really doing that much yet. I did learn however, that jogging on the treadmill is much easier than jogging on the ground.. for what it's worth.
Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck... ~Dalai Lama
this was on my Wisdom's of the East calendar the other day. I feel like it is really important to keep this in mind this week. I go in on Monday to find out if I got it or not, and really am not sure what to wish for.
A) If I got it, then great! I lost 50 lbs, reduced my prescription drugs from 9 to 2, am exercising and changed my eating habits. That is all GREAT! I am a bit frustrated with the lack of lbs leaving my body. I will be losing my 3 month follow up appts, and the support system that comes along with it. I feel like this will be the end and I won't have the motivation to go forward.
B) If I didn't get it, I did the above all on my own! That is GREAT, and I get the chance to drop some more weight as well as another year of support.
No matter what, I will get the answer soon and have to deal with it!
Happy Sweating!
Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck... ~Dalai Lama
this was on my Wisdom's of the East calendar the other day. I feel like it is really important to keep this in mind this week. I go in on Monday to find out if I got it or not, and really am not sure what to wish for.
A) If I got it, then great! I lost 50 lbs, reduced my prescription drugs from 9 to 2, am exercising and changed my eating habits. That is all GREAT! I am a bit frustrated with the lack of lbs leaving my body. I will be losing my 3 month follow up appts, and the support system that comes along with it. I feel like this will be the end and I won't have the motivation to go forward.
B) If I didn't get it, I did the above all on my own! That is GREAT, and I get the chance to drop some more weight as well as another year of support.
No matter what, I will get the answer soon and have to deal with it!
Happy Sweating!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Wow
OK, It's been forever since my last post. Not much really going on, other than continuing on my path to a healthy lifestyle. I am still stuck around the 50lb weight loss, but have beefed up my workouts hoping to move that stinking scale!
Actually, on Monday March 15th, 2010 I started the Couch to 5k program. I wasn't able to finish the first day, but today I finished the entire workout and feel great. It is a 9+ week program to get you jogging a 5k. I'm pretty excited about it actually.
Friday I had my one year EGD and will go in on the 22 to meet with Dr. Khaiton to be unblinded. I'm not sure what I am hoping for, I do know that I just need the answer so I can move forward with whatever.
Actually, on Monday March 15th, 2010 I started the Couch to 5k program. I wasn't able to finish the first day, but today I finished the entire workout and feel great. It is a 9+ week program to get you jogging a 5k. I'm pretty excited about it actually.
Friday I had my one year EGD and will go in on the 22 to meet with Dr. Khaiton to be unblinded. I'm not sure what I am hoping for, I do know that I just need the answer so I can move forward with whatever.
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