Monday

It's monday.... I am hungry and tired of drinking................

I have only lost about 1.5 lbs so far and am not real happy about that either.....

Grumpy today

12 days

I have 12 days to go! I am now in the liquids portion and am not really enjoying it so much, but know that when the scale starts to move a bit it will pick me up!

Being a bzz agent has actually paid off this time around! I am doing Starbucks this time around and am drinking the Pikes Place roast. I will tell you that when I am feeling hungry or low on energy I brew some up! It is surprisingly satisfying and really keeps me moving!! You should try it!

14 and counting

Went to UH Cleveland today for my pre admission testing. I hate it, but it is important. I also started my liquid diet, which again.. I hate. Two weeks of nothing but, Fat Free cream Soup strained, Jello, Yogurt, Apple Sauce, Popsicles, Broth, and Protein Shakes... YUMMO

But the benefits are good, and it will get me ready for my reduced intake post op................

uggggggggggggg

Friday

Lot's going on in my head right now. I have been feeling very stressed out with this whole situation. The past year has been a tough one with not really knowing if I had it or not. Wanting so badly to believe that I did, holding onto that hope. Then as time came closer to actually finding out, I was scared that I did have it. I was afraid that I had not lost enough and wouldn't be able to lose any more.

Well, I got the best case scenario and should be happy....... And it really isn't that I am not happy, because I am. I am more scared I suppose than anything. I am scared that I won't lose anymore and that the past year, and the upcoming year will not yield the results I am hoping for.

I guess time will tell!

22 Days

And counting.....

I start my liquid diet next week. Not really looking forward to it, but know that it is best for me. And will help me lose a couple of pounds prior to the surgery.

I continue to struggle with my fears that this isn't going to work and that I will still need to do the RYN at some point. But, I am pushing forward. I am healthier, happier and ready for more!

I showed my niece my 101 goals in 1001 days book! She has started her own!! Gotta love that!

Goals

I started a project the beginning of this year. 101 goals in 1001 days! It's great! One of my goals is to attempt to have a picture published. Well, not just a picture, but one of MY photographs. I have a couple in mind, but really need to get out and start shooting some more.

I am hoping to head out in my kayak and get some shots that are different and will stand out.

Weekend

Spent the weekend with a friend. It's nice to have a date, and to know that I will have the chance to lose more weight. Right now, however, I don't want to gain any weight before the surgery. I am struggling with not over eating because I know I can. It will also make it harder for me to do the liquid diet that I have to start on April 13, 2010. Two weeks before and two weeks after.

I should at least lose something during this time....!